A Little Chilly
Hey My Friends! Hope all is well and you are staying warm!!
It has been a little chilly here. Teens most of the day and quite a bit of wind.
So of course, I walked.
Cold weather has many different perspectives. For many cold, windy weather is unappreciated, disliked, and desired to go away soon! It would not be my first choice, but it tends to be part of winter time. The journey that I am on has made me appreciate and see most day to day life a little different.
Last year we had two days of frozen ice on the ground. I walked both days and only fell 2-3 times both days. That didn’t matter at all. Those falls were simply reminders of all the different challenges that can come around day to day. Those types of challenges have never made me choose to not walk. Today was no different.
In today’s cold and windy situation, I walked right at 2.5 miles. My walking has cut way back in the last several months. 2-3 miles is the top mileage I walk these days. 1-2 miles dosen’t bother me. I am grateful for any walk I get in each day.
I am way past trying to decide how much time I have left. I am way past the normal timeline of living with glioblastoma. These days I am more grateful than ever. The oddest part of this journey has been the pain and discomfort in my legs. This started several months ago and my legs are uncomfortable or painful 24/7. Riding in a car or sitting in the same position gets past uncomfortable very quickly.
The odd part of that to me is, I seem to have less leg pain when I am up, moving around, or walking. I have walked from the early part of this journey. After I got home from my brain surgery, I started walking every day. I was a veggie, didn't think about anything for the first 8+ months. My walking time and mileage grew. Before this tumor got active again, I was walking 5-6 miles everyday and starting early in the morning. It does not happen that way anymore but still love to go walk every day.
On a walk, I take a little time for myself; conversation with God, reflection on what a gift my life has been….Every walk I get home, get a little more focused on that day, and feel like an incredibly blessed man!
Life can get discouraging in so many ways. The idea that men and women of faith should never have a bad day makes no sense to me. Everyone does some days. What do you do with that?
No treatment any more. Natalie and I will meet with our new Hospice team this week. We kind of interviewed two groups. Both seemed very good at what they provide. There was something very special about the rep with Three Oaks Hospice. Enjoyed our time with him, and that time started with his faith journey. I was not expecting that!
I hope I have no reason to believe that my life is about over. Believing I have some time left. Not feeling as well as I use to.
My plan is to take another walk in the morning. Thank God for His love and to be grateful for one more day!!!!
Remember,,,,,,, You are Loved and of Great Value………