“Death Sentence Is A Great Teacher”
Good Day! Hope you are doing well and enjoying life!! I am making progress in this area, which continues to be a huge blessing!!!
Still not working on writing the way I want to, but making some slow progress.
Saw one of my specialist yesterday. The one who is working with me on the chemotherapy. Did blood work before I start the next round Monday. My blood work, looked great! That is always a huge blessing to me. Start another 5 day round of chemo Monday. Choosing to believe this is keeping me a little healthier and will help me live a little longer. Believing God might have some part in all of that!
You will hear from one of my kids here on Friday. I am excited about that info and thought it might fit today to remind you and my kids how much they mean to me and how special they each continue to be.
I will start with my youngest, Madison. Madison is my only girl and she is amazing. She has been married to Cole since January 29th of this year. She made a great choice. Cole made a GREAT choice!
Madison and I were not as close as I wanted to be with her as a teenager. I can’t blame any of that on her. She was very active, her friendships mattered and honestly I don’t know that I was great at relating to my young girl. I felt like we made a little progress her senior year and of all things started once she took off for college, I feel like our relationship really got going.
In many ways she is very different than her brothers. The way she flourished in college really blew my mind. She was very involved and especially in rolls that matured her, taught her to get things done and forced her to be very responsible. Her responsibility grew every year and kind of blew me away.
A quick example of Madison, that was so encouraging and a great example of the women she truly is. Before she started school she was excited getting into a sorority. I was not excited about that, but also felt like it was her choice, not mine. I ask one thing of her. I said to Madison, “if you are going to be in a sorority, please be a leader.” Wow, wow, wow!!! The way and the roles she played her four years in school were amazing.
This women and my daughter is a leader. Was then and still is today. Professionally in her work, the ministry she has been involved in and her role in her friendships, amaze me! I can’t write enough about all my kids, but this child is a blessing. She and I have had so many open communication about my cancer and how it is and will give me less time for living. We cry together and laugh together. She comes over ever now and then and works from our house so we can spend a little time together.
I am so proud of this child, young women and the difference she is already making in the world. I will mention this with each child. The forecast is this cancer I have, will take my life at some point and it can’t be stopped. I have a relationship with Madison like my boys that I don’t want to leave them. I also don’t worry about dying and wondering how they will do. Madison will grieve losing her dad. She is very much a part of this family, she will be a part of the grieving process. Her husband will love on her and give her time to get through the loss of her dad.
Grief, as hard as it is, simply happens in this life. I hate it for the people who simply refuse to deal with it. I understand it is hard, but it can be done. It can be done and make you a stronger person. I want that for my kids. I honestly want that for any one reading this. Each of you have lost key people in your life or will at some point.
Remember one of the common experiences for each of us. “You were born and you will die.” That truth can make you sad or locked up. It can also teach you to live, and live well.
These are simply little snapshots about my children, so much more I could write. Friday my kiddo is Mason and will also have a very important announcement.
Remember, Remember, Don’t Ever Forget……. “YOU ARE LOVED AND OF GREAT VALUE”
PEACE,