“Getting Started Again”

Good morning, afternoon or evening! Hope you are well and enjoying the summer.

This process has been important and helpful for me. That is the truth and then, makes it frustrating and hard to understand why it has not been happening. Once again I am going to try and get back at it. I guess I will blame my brain surgery. That’s been a very frustrating journey. I do believe it will give me a little more life. Maybe already has, that’s what one of my Dr’s say. That surgery messed me up a little. Kind of makes sense when you realize they cut a chunk of your brain out. Oh well trying to get back on track.

Let me give you a small update, and once again, my desire is, this writting is getting started again and working to be more consistent.

I have still not made a penny in the last 8 months. The flip side of that is many people have been so generous, it has made this year, doable and very-very special. Living on Natalie’s salary in this house was not going to be possible. We had just started the process of meeting with a very good friend who is a Realtor. This was not what we truly wanted to do, but realized it had to happen.

Being given a death sentence with a short time line has been an incredible learning process. Natalie and I are learning to live more “day to day!” I have tried to do that more and more before I was diagnosed with this brain tumor, but this has truly encouraged us to practice the process.

So the day before we met with my friend and Realtor, another friend drove down from Oklahoma to meet with us. He wrote my life insurance policy, almost 25 five years ago. My concern was this “term life” is the kind you don’t get until you die. I may have been wrong about that. I found out if you have terminal illness you can get a percentage of your money before you die. If that is the case, we can stay here, pay a chunk on what we owe on our house and have a very small payment each month. A week ago we had no idea this was a possibility.

Staying in this house would be such a blessing to Natalie and I. This house has been very special to both of us. The plan was to retire here, enjoy our children and grandkids in this house. Hoping that is still going to happen. My time line may be much shorter but I would still love to finish here!

In my ministry work and counseling, I always tried to help people understand what they have some control of, and areas in life they have no control. I did not choose a brain tumor and there are many parts of a terminal brain tumor I can’t control. Can’t say I have enjoyed it much, but I have learned many things about life.

Even when we are going through tough, unwanted things in this life, God is present. Family, friends and others are present. Much of our life is what and how we decide to look at and make sense of this life.

Part of this process does not make sense to me. But I feel as blessed and cared for by God and others as I ever have. I am grateful for that. Still have some ruff days and moments but they really don’t last very long.

Hope we stay in this house. Today I believe we will, if not, the housing market is incredible right now. If we have to, we will sale and make the next plans. My plan today is to be here until I die. We will see how that goes.

Feel a little more disorganized doing this but trying to get back at it. Maybe doing that will help me do it a little better.

Remember, “YOU ARE LOVED AND OF GREAT VALUE!”