“Stumbling and Still Moving”

Happy May and hope you are doing well. WOW! the last month has been a little odd for me. I am trying to get some of my life back into normalcy. I had my last surgery on March 31 and we can say that surgery kicked my butt a little. I am making progress but it has taken a little more time than I was expecting.

I did figure out when they cut stuff out of your head it is going to have some different kinds of effects. There are parts of my head that seem to be working fine and other areas that seem disoriented. They believe my head will continue to heal up and work well, I guess more time will help figure that out.

I believe I will be able to start writing again and I guess time will reveal. I want to share a thought that I have written about but it is an important idea for me.

If I ask you this question. “What do you have control of each day?” The last sixth month have highlighted for me all the things that I have some control of and other things that I have no control of.

If I am being completely honest the last couple of weeks there have been several days I have felt like my brain and life just didn’t matter that much. That was very new for me. I was not being negative to my self, it just did’nt seem to matter much if I was here or on to what ever God had next. This has been an interesting journey and I continue to learn things about God and myself.

I really am writing a few things to help remind myself about what really matters. Learning that there are things I have control and and things I have zero control. Remembering I have an amazing wife, that honestly may be walking through the hardest part of all of this. My children and their mates have been amazing, I have family and friends that have been amazing.

I want to live well the time I have left. I don’t know how long that will be, know of us actually know how long we have. I am committed to living well with my part. The stuff I can’t control I will continue to let go of. So many of you have made a huge blessing and I am so grateful for you!! I hope I will also have some time to encourage and support many of you!!!

Remember, you are loved and of great!!!!!!